This is it didn't make me sad, I didn't cry, it made me happy and I think that is how MJ would have want his fans coming into this movie to feel. Seeing him throw down dance moves like it secondhand nature is so crazy. He says he wants to 'save his voice' and yet seconds later he sings the most graceful and beautiful notes in the film. They seem to cut through songs quickly but linger on ones that kinda felt flat. We spend SO much time with Earthsong (which IS beautiful and epic) but yet SO little time on Man in the Mirror. I felt almost cheated. Where was the moonwalk, the whole theater got giddy when Billie Jean started and yet, no moonwalk? Did I blink and miss? The scene with him having a gun stand off with Humphrey Bogart had me floored. OMG. Smooth Criminal is easily the BEST part of the movie. This would have been one hell of a concert, you crazy Europeans were loyal and he wanted to give back. Shame it took his death for American to realize they lost a rare talent. The perspective you get in this film is worth watching it multiple times, just hearing his vocal range (INSANE.) to his dance moves that come as simple to him as breathing is jaw dropping. I will seeing this again in Imax on Saturday. I have no shame. When it comes to MJ, none.



There is a film coming out (came out?) in the UK that seems to give some sort of justice to the John Lennon story. The teddy boy look is amazing and they included important women in his life like Aunt Mimi and Julia (usually when people talk of Lennon, then mention two other people, Macca and Yoko) so it's nice to see this side of the story. ANNND I think there was a Cynthia in the trailer? I'm very interested in this film and really want to see it, I hope it is released in the US.

I haven't really posted, POSTED in some time. Been busy, not with work but more with my time off. Been out living life with my cousins, late night bike rides with my sister and trying to reconnect and calm the eff down with an ex. All in all, good times. Plus my net has been off/on and slow as hell and I haven't really seen/read much on lj. WHAT DID I MISS?

When I do have decent net access, I have been living at gdc and they have a great bunch of people and I have spoiled myself endlessly with this tour. I just can't wait. Before I could just go about life and be like, "OH WOW, it's the 15th already? I got a show to go to tonight!" but not for Green Day, I count down the days and beat myself up over how it'd go. I wonder about all the old friends I'll see at the San Jose show, the surprise I have in store at the Sacramento show, the epic Vegas show and I praypraypray they play 21st CB in it's entirety at the last show in LA. See? Beating myself up. I angst over these things. I am GREEDY. I want to hear 21st CB in it's entirety again.

Been listing to MJ endlessly on a loop. I actually have been before his death, BAD is easily the third most listened album on my ipod. First is (of course) TBP and second is AI. (Typical!) But with his death, fans have been coming out of everywhere and some are making great graphics and I have to share this link! TONS of wallpapers from most of his eras. The Captain EO one had my floored. WOW. I think I'm set for the year. Another great post on livejournal, not Mj related but NKOTB related is this, widgetchick did a great write up of an end of an era/fandom. Can we really call it an end? Sure I've talked shit and lurked and watched with glee at the drama, but I've got to know some really great people like widget, emobeauty, catdecember, fautedemieux73, debbie and so many more people. You guys are crazzzzzzzzzy but I love you guys.

I just put in my hair a while back punky's midnight blue and it still looks good. I need to touch it up, but before that I really want to an appointment in to do some bleaching but all my days off are filled up. That and I get paid NEXT week, so I should wait, I want cash to tip the poor woman who will be doing my hair. I tip easily 20-30 dollars alone. I want to try something local but all the ladies people recommend to me aren't English speaking. I want to drag a coworker along but no one is willing to sit and wait, it is a dreadful process but I'm going to suck it up and ask the ward clerk if she can come with me. I really want more blue.

It's kinda weird to say this but with MJ's passing, more than ever I don't want to so uptight or stress out so much. I try to be nicer. I try to be more honest. Plus I want to be surrounded by all the right people, considering MJ had none at the time of his death. I have been spending and talking to F more and more. He was the guy I met at the FB HT show last year and one of the best guys I ever got to date. We hang out, talk on the phone and it feels good. I was a loner and I loved being alone but now as I get older, it's just dreadful. Even just being alone in the house when my sisters aren't around makes me a little sad. I don't need people, I am far from clingy but it's just nice having someone around. He is not always around since he lives a bit far, but that's ok. I was never the type to want to see my bf every single day. (That is madness! My sister is like that. How does one do it?) It's just nice to have someone who doesn't judge my diagnosis, he is one of the only that I can talk to about it that isn't my Doctor. So yay? But we aren't dating, he knows I am interested in someone else. But says he is willing to wait. Normally I would run screaming but that is loyalty that I need at the moment?

Some pics of the casino trip. All off my phone. We just swam and hung out in the sun. I did gamble once, won 60.00 and got out and read the rest of the night. Yay. I'm so boring, but no one seemed to mind. The room and it's beds were nice and plushy. The TV selection sucked, but I never put in any real value in television. ( Read more... )

ETA: Jason keeps it real. RESPECT! POWER OF MJ!

I am sorry for the lack of postage. I have been very busy. Went to LA to give respects to Michael. I didn't take much pics, as much as I wanted because it was a bit of a circus there and some places didn't want flash. I wish I took pics of all the merch I saw in LA. It was a crazy weekend. Some of the pics, not all, some are huge, I have them under the cut and thumbnailed. Enjoy!

Today Michael would have had his first show at the 02 arena in London. It hurts so much that he is gone. It hurts more that only in death people give praise and have a new perspective on him.

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= I need to revamp my ipod.
= I need to make an appt and color strip my hair. (I don't want to strip it on my own.)
= I need to wash my car.
= I need to write down all the directions and read about parking lots on yelp.
= I need to put money in my bank account. SO LOW.
= I need to go bike riding more.
= I need to sit and read all the magazines I get in the mail.
= I need to buy a pair of heels. (That won't kill me.)
= I need to buy a new suitcase.
= I need to stop spending all my money on ebay.

= I should go bike riding tonight.
= I should listen to 21st CB again.
= I should be nicer to my coworkers.
= I should stop being team leader, it's killing me.
= I should tell the master to piss off.
= I should show up on time instead of LAST SECOND POSSIBLE. (omg, that's getting old.)
= I should get back to G and call him back.
= I should read all the books I buy instead of sorting them.
= I should try out a new perfume every day. Lord knows, I have at least six new ones, untouched.

= I want to calm the fuck down.
= I want to have more days off.
= I want to change my hair color.
= I want better/new high tops.
= I want the world to mean it when they say they loved MJ.

= I hate that I am going out of my way to impress someone. That's not who I am. I'm not one of those girls.

LA this weekend. THANK GOD. I need a break. Tomorrow will be my 7th day, of 12 hour shifts. Day 5 was an 18 hour shift. I haven't been going to the gym, I feel dreadful. Not happy with my crew. I love my AM shift, but I hate being put on the spot whenever there is some sort of confrontation and I have to speak for my crew to the boss or any other type of authority I have to visit. Today was weird with the human resources people because someone did something to my file and someone switched me from Full Time for the last four years to part time and that made my rate and status do something funny. For a milisecond there they weren't going to bring me back to my full time status and I marched right up to my Boss, the big boss, who I have been nothing but loyal to since day one she came to the building and she put in writing that I'm full time status and her right hand man. LOLZ. No lie, that's sweet. It's nice to know she can trust me 100000000% and goes to bat for me. Oh work, you have been killing me lately. There is so much tension at the place, that the things I COULD tell you all but it'd be TMI. Really, you don't want to know.

Anyway, LA this weekend, a nice long three days. Going to see the MJ exhibit. Hopefully I don't die in traffic, it's been a while. Harry Potter in what? A week. No Doubt in three weeks. Then tons of birthday parties to go to in August, but August only means one thing. TWO WORDS: Green Day. Hopefully after the tour, I'll get my lyrics tattooed on. Ahahaha. I'm soooooooo lame, but it has to be done.

ETA: I broke my phone and now have this blackberry that is killing me. So I'm so, so, so, so, so, so sorry that I haven't texted or texted half ass or have dropped/missed calls. SO many people called me over AX that was the time the phone busted. I hate to give people the run around or the impression that I'm not getting back to you. So it's my phone, it sucks. It's still taking like 5 mins to text someone back. I have tons of voicemails but no idea how to check them. It sucks. I need to buy a new phone soon. I say it before, I say it again, just give me a call and if I don't pick up, I'll get back to you, I promise.