I'm in *love* with my new computer. Say what you will about Windows 7 but it is a godsend and SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO smooth. Why didn't I upgrade sooner? I have been trying to update my norton, nero, firefox, bookmarks, itunes and just about 23454677 other things. Nowhere near done and yet I'm soooooo drained. I went to Benihana's for lunch and Chili's for dinner. I think I ate more today than I did yesterday.

I went to Fry's to pick up my computer. I love it there, they gave me a 2 year warranty and it was run in and run out. I did pick up the last tower for sale on the price I wanted, so I got hella lucky. I did find Mamba's (I know, random) while in line and the last time I saw those was when I stayed in Inglewood with illaparatzo. They even had SOUR Mamba's but I didn't grab those. I should have! Next time.

Overrall, I love having time off work but I do miss it. I have been blowing money left and right and I know next week it'd be nothing but work, so I should enjoy it. I'm so grateful to have my family and friends over to spend time with me.

Tomorrow is the 29th. The day that I felt my first real major lost in my life; I love you G. I lovelovelovelovelovelove you. You are my rage and love. Thankyou.

With all my time spent at GDC, I don't think I'll ever get those reviews up. Every time I am ready to sit and write and share and upload pics I get side tracked. Bah. I at least want to do a picspam but it'd have to wait. The weather is insane with the residents doing a full on riot at work where they didn't want to go outside for the "Hawaii dance off" the activities people were doing. Came down to pushing walkers down and throwing blows. Glad I was able to run off because I didn't want the party in the first place. Gave my coworkers their gifts, we went out to eat, we are going out again next week because they really want to sit down and EAT. (They do the whole starve-yourself-all-day and do the 5 course thing at night.)

In other news my computer had an issue today, I was transferring some music for a friend and while the cd was reading, I was dragging files to the desk top and the disc exploded inside! It was a large smashing/pop noise and I opened the drive to find pieces of my cd. It took ages to get out and I was so annoyed. I backed up some stuff and the drive still works but there is still ONE more piece of the disc in the drive, but I can't get it out for the life of me. I had to disconnect everything to really sit and take out the pieces, so now my resolution of my monitor is all funny and blurry. I get a headache just looking at the screen. Argh. PAIN. Someone needs to help me with this.

I am exhausted from all the traveling, I think next time instead of back-to-back shows how about doing a show a week or something? Next time Green Day comes back, I want to see them in NY and will def. fly out to a meet and greet (if they do them again). More shows but more spaced at. AND floor seats. It has to be floor. All my friends were on the floor in sac. Made me sad I couldn't be with them. I was looking over my old-OLD lj entries (it's all private, I think from 07-down..) and I am looking for this Green Day fic that I recced about Billie Joe and Tre and I can't find it for the life of me and it's making me sad. I just want to angst over old epic fanfic that had me bawling when I was 21. Grrr. I use to and can still quote that fanfic. I use to USE lines when I was dating losers at 24. Ahahahaha. I had no game. (I still don't!) My Uncle is on match.com (My uncle is who a year older than me.) and he is meeting people left and right and he swears I should use it but now more than ever, after all the traveling and summer, I realize I don't like anyone at the moment. I did but that is soooooo long gone (MY EYES HAVE SEEN THE LIGHT. THANK YOU GOD.) and it feels good to just focus on myself and G. Like I've always said, "Single, but taken."

September schedule for work is ridic. I will be living at work. Twitter will be my life, entertain me. PLS.

I haven't really posted, POSTED in some time. Been busy, not with work but more with my time off. Been out living life with my cousins, late night bike rides with my sister and trying to reconnect and calm the eff down with an ex. All in all, good times. Plus my net has been off/on and slow as hell and I haven't really seen/read much on lj. WHAT DID I MISS?

When I do have decent net access, I have been living at gdc and they have a great bunch of people and I have spoiled myself endlessly with this tour. I just can't wait. Before I could just go about life and be like, "OH WOW, it's the 15th already? I got a show to go to tonight!" but not for Green Day, I count down the days and beat myself up over how it'd go. I wonder about all the old friends I'll see at the San Jose show, the surprise I have in store at the Sacramento show, the epic Vegas show and I praypraypray they play 21st CB in it's entirety at the last show in LA. See? Beating myself up. I angst over these things. I am GREEDY. I want to hear 21st CB in it's entirety again.

Been listing to MJ endlessly on a loop. I actually have been before his death, BAD is easily the third most listened album on my ipod. First is (of course) TBP and second is AI. (Typical!) But with his death, fans have been coming out of everywhere and some are making great graphics and I have to share this link! TONS of wallpapers from most of his eras. The Captain EO one had my floored. WOW. I think I'm set for the year. Another great post on livejournal, not Mj related but NKOTB related is this, widgetchick did a great write up of an end of an era/fandom. Can we really call it an end? Sure I've talked shit and lurked and watched with glee at the drama, but I've got to know some really great people like widget, emobeauty, catdecember, fautedemieux73, debbie and so many more people. You guys are crazzzzzzzzzy but I love you guys.

I just put in my hair a while back punky's midnight blue and it still looks good. I need to touch it up, but before that I really want to an appointment in to do some bleaching but all my days off are filled up. That and I get paid NEXT week, so I should wait, I want cash to tip the poor woman who will be doing my hair. I tip easily 20-30 dollars alone. I want to try something local but all the ladies people recommend to me aren't English speaking. I want to drag a coworker along but no one is willing to sit and wait, it is a dreadful process but I'm going to suck it up and ask the ward clerk if she can come with me. I really want more blue.

It's kinda weird to say this but with MJ's passing, more than ever I don't want to so uptight or stress out so much. I try to be nicer. I try to be more honest. Plus I want to be surrounded by all the right people, considering MJ had none at the time of his death. I have been spending and talking to F more and more. He was the guy I met at the FB HT show last year and one of the best guys I ever got to date. We hang out, talk on the phone and it feels good. I was a loner and I loved being alone but now as I get older, it's just dreadful. Even just being alone in the house when my sisters aren't around makes me a little sad. I don't need people, I am far from clingy but it's just nice having someone around. He is not always around since he lives a bit far, but that's ok. I was never the type to want to see my bf every single day. (That is madness! My sister is like that. How does one do it?) It's just nice to have someone who doesn't judge my diagnosis, he is one of the only that I can talk to about it that isn't my Doctor. So yay? But we aren't dating, he knows I am interested in someone else. But says he is willing to wait. Normally I would run screaming but that is loyalty that I need at the moment?

Some pics of the casino trip. All off my phone. We just swam and hung out in the sun. I did gamble once, won 60.00 and got out and read the rest of the night. Yay. I'm so boring, but no one seemed to mind. The room and it's beds were nice and plushy. The TV selection sucked, but I never put in any real value in television. ( Read more... )

ETA: Jason keeps it real. RESPECT! POWER OF MJ!

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= I need to revamp my ipod.
= I need to make an appt and color strip my hair. (I don't want to strip it on my own.)
= I need to wash my car.
= I need to write down all the directions and read about parking lots on yelp.
= I need to put money in my bank account. SO LOW.
= I need to go bike riding more.
= I need to sit and read all the magazines I get in the mail.
= I need to buy a pair of heels. (That won't kill me.)
= I need to buy a new suitcase.
= I need to stop spending all my money on ebay.

= I should go bike riding tonight.
= I should listen to 21st CB again.
= I should be nicer to my coworkers.
= I should stop being team leader, it's killing me.
= I should tell the master to piss off.
= I should show up on time instead of LAST SECOND POSSIBLE. (omg, that's getting old.)
= I should get back to G and call him back.
= I should read all the books I buy instead of sorting them.
= I should try out a new perfume every day. Lord knows, I have at least six new ones, untouched.

= I want to calm the fuck down.
= I want to have more days off.
= I want to change my hair color.
= I want better/new high tops.
= I want the world to mean it when they say they loved MJ.

= I hate that I am going out of my way to impress someone. That's not who I am. I'm not one of those girls.

LA this weekend. THANK GOD. I need a break. Tomorrow will be my 7th day, of 12 hour shifts. Day 5 was an 18 hour shift. I haven't been going to the gym, I feel dreadful. Not happy with my crew. I love my AM shift, but I hate being put on the spot whenever there is some sort of confrontation and I have to speak for my crew to the boss or any other type of authority I have to visit. Today was weird with the human resources people because someone did something to my file and someone switched me from Full Time for the last four years to part time and that made my rate and status do something funny. For a milisecond there they weren't going to bring me back to my full time status and I marched right up to my Boss, the big boss, who I have been nothing but loyal to since day one she came to the building and she put in writing that I'm full time status and her right hand man. LOLZ. No lie, that's sweet. It's nice to know she can trust me 100000000% and goes to bat for me. Oh work, you have been killing me lately. There is so much tension at the place, that the things I COULD tell you all but it'd be TMI. Really, you don't want to know.

Anyway, LA this weekend, a nice long three days. Going to see the MJ exhibit. Hopefully I don't die in traffic, it's been a while. Harry Potter in what? A week. No Doubt in three weeks. Then tons of birthday parties to go to in August, but August only means one thing. TWO WORDS: Green Day. Hopefully after the tour, I'll get my lyrics tattooed on. Ahahaha. I'm soooooooo lame, but it has to be done.

ETA: I broke my phone and now have this blackberry that is killing me. So I'm so, so, so, so, so, so sorry that I haven't texted or texted half ass or have dropped/missed calls. SO many people called me over AX that was the time the phone busted. I hate to give people the run around or the impression that I'm not getting back to you. So it's my phone, it sucks. It's still taking like 5 mins to text someone back. I have tons of voicemails but no idea how to check them. It sucks. I need to buy a new phone soon. I say it before, I say it again, just give me a call and if I don't pick up, I'll get back to you, I promise.