I guess I SHOULD post. Just resting and watching a ridiculously amount of TV. Been in and out of the doctor with numerous checkups. The kidney infection is just about gone but we have another issue we have to address, because the pain is ridic. Been off work since tues. THANK GOD for sick pay. I just got paid today a full check because of my sick pay and I have more than enough to pay me for this week that I've been off. Thank god for union and benefits and all that stuff. Now my insurance on the other hand is hit or miss. I went had a few xrays and two ultrasounds done so we shall see how much I will have to pay for that.

Doctor told me no matter how much it hurts to keep walking around and do my routine. I did rather well, able to do everything I need to do and even walked from the hospital to home where some city works blocked the street to my house and got really upset that I didn't listen to the signs. They even dashed across the street to chew me out but I just kept walking, seriously, if you aren't going to talk to me like a human being you don't deserve my time. It's like, I LIVE THERE, you telling me I can't go home? Lame.

Been reading fanfic out of boredom. I'm amazed that fanfic I read while in HIGH SCHOOL is still up on the net. Into my Life is a long 'mary-sue' fanfic that I read while in high school because at the time I loved reading long 345353533 chapter fanfics, rather than oneshots and it seemed the het/mary-sue types were the only ones that ran long. Another one I've read was Live at 12 cold street which is only available in book form. How are people able to make money off beatle fanfic? Is that legal? Some fanfic isn't up anymore, but web archive and me trying damn hard to remember titles I read as a kid can get old school fanfic come up. Like Dreamers Do This fic is like seven years old but I remember reading it in college. Yup, all het. You think I would like beatles slash more since I made beatlesslash six years ago! Shame I got pressured to give it up years ago.. But I'm very happy with the way it looks now!

I have been meaning to read this Tug of War (putting a link so I can find it later! XD) Paul is the time traveler desperately trying to save John. But what if that requires giving up Linda and the kids and everything he loves about his own life?

Today I will attempt to go out on a friday night... and buy (more) makeup. Me and Sephora and the MAC counter are going to be bffs tonight. My goal is to find a new purse and some new makeup for fun.

So I finally colored all of my hair black. I have been thinking about it for a while, but never thought I'd do it. I get so bored so quickly, but more and more hair was breaking off and the roots needed to be done, so I figure just go all black and take a break. Maybe now I will wash my hair more. I usually wash just twice a week, but who knows. Washing my hair is a big deal and takes time.

I go back to work tomorrow. I had four days off to recover from my cold. I feel better, the fatigue is killing me. The meds make me drowsy as hell and I slept from 10am to 2pm today and that wasn't something I wanted to do. I had TONS to do today but didn't get anything done. I picked up the holiday, so I will be working of the next five days. No three day weekend for me. I can't wait to pick up my Beatles game next week. I plan on singing every single song with no shame. People in the household will be annoyed as hell. XD.

Awww. I love any and all photos of Lindsey and Gerard. I hate how creepy that makes me. But if it's creepy, that so be!

I have been in such a great mood. Maybe because my face is heeling! I didn't lj it, but it was a horrible adventure filled with bad advice. Basically, I never, ever break out. I was one of those lucky people who don't have acne. Maybe once a year I get this massive explosion on my face, but otherwise, my face and I are on good terms. Last week, I had this huge massive pimple on my right cheek that just grew and grew. Four days of growing and I asked around work what I should do. Someone gave me meds, it got smaller, but it was flamin' bright red! Someone else gave me some kind of cream and to wear overnight. I did that and woke up to a burnt cheek! O.M.G. The pimple was there and all around it was black as night. JESUS! I was flipping out and so mortified. Everyone thought I got in a fight. So after a whole day of feeling bad for myself, I got over it and just waited. A few days later and with zinc cream from the med cart at work, my face is back to normal. It's still red and kinda open, but nowhere near as bad as it was. So basically I will never again put anything on my face when it comes to break outs. I will just do what I usually do and wait it out. It was really BAD and I wish I took pics, you all would be dying at what was going on with my face. Badbadbaddddd.

Next week will be a bit busy, Green Day in San Jose on Tues, The Circus on thursday and then flying out for Green Day in Las Vegas on friday. SOOOOOOOOO EXCITED FOR GREEN DAY. You have no idea. It seems I have been waiting a life time! I will be going with great people, so much loveon GDC and it'd just be a big party on Tuesday! Hometown show's are always epic and this is as close as hometown as it gets. I have been stalking the setlist from the start of the tour and it has been off and on great to huh?!? NY dates set the bar with them playing for THREE HOURS and throwing in every old school jam you could think of. The last couple of shows have sadly been less songs and the removal of JOS. (What? WHY? WAT!!!!) If you take a nine min song off the setlist, you THINK they would play more songs, but they played less the last three nights. I worry because my dates are next week and I want JOS. I need it!. But last nights show had the worst turn out, the worst reviews and just tons of hating on GDC. I'm actually getting kinda scared. There isn't a show tonight, but one tomorrow, so I hope it was just a bad night.

I dyed my hair black, haven't dyed it black since April and the tips and back were faded black/brown. People say I have black hair, or 'black hair is black hair, what could be different?' but you can tell when someone throws on some black dye. It just looks so much better! Darker colors really hide the damage! I have dark blue on top, but eh. I think in Sep. I will go all black and just wear hair pieces. Because once the black is one, it's so hard to lift and change. I have been collecting loose falls and they are just so much fun to wear and style.

I have gotten the best sleep in years. I am on lexapro. It's only been like 9 days, but dammmmn. The sleep has been so good. It's ridic. I feel like a new person with all this A+ sleep I have been getting. Good times! I love my life.

I haven't really posted, POSTED in some time. Been busy, not with work but more with my time off. Been out living life with my cousins, late night bike rides with my sister and trying to reconnect and calm the eff down with an ex. All in all, good times. Plus my net has been off/on and slow as hell and I haven't really seen/read much on lj. WHAT DID I MISS?

When I do have decent net access, I have been living at gdc and they have a great bunch of people and I have spoiled myself endlessly with this tour. I just can't wait. Before I could just go about life and be like, "OH WOW, it's the 15th already? I got a show to go to tonight!" but not for Green Day, I count down the days and beat myself up over how it'd go. I wonder about all the old friends I'll see at the San Jose show, the surprise I have in store at the Sacramento show, the epic Vegas show and I praypraypray they play 21st CB in it's entirety at the last show in LA. See? Beating myself up. I angst over these things. I am GREEDY. I want to hear 21st CB in it's entirety again.

Been listing to MJ endlessly on a loop. I actually have been before his death, BAD is easily the third most listened album on my ipod. First is (of course) TBP and second is AI. (Typical!) But with his death, fans have been coming out of everywhere and some are making great graphics and I have to share this link! TONS of wallpapers from most of his eras. The Captain EO one had my floored. WOW. I think I'm set for the year. Another great post on livejournal, not Mj related but NKOTB related is this, widgetchick did a great write up of an end of an era/fandom. Can we really call it an end? Sure I've talked shit and lurked and watched with glee at the drama, but I've got to know some really great people like widget, emobeauty, catdecember, fautedemieux73, debbie and so many more people. You guys are crazzzzzzzzzy but I love you guys.

I just put in my hair a while back punky's midnight blue and it still looks good. I need to touch it up, but before that I really want to an appointment in to do some bleaching but all my days off are filled up. That and I get paid NEXT week, so I should wait, I want cash to tip the poor woman who will be doing my hair. I tip easily 20-30 dollars alone. I want to try something local but all the ladies people recommend to me aren't English speaking. I want to drag a coworker along but no one is willing to sit and wait, it is a dreadful process but I'm going to suck it up and ask the ward clerk if she can come with me. I really want more blue.

It's kinda weird to say this but with MJ's passing, more than ever I don't want to so uptight or stress out so much. I try to be nicer. I try to be more honest. Plus I want to be surrounded by all the right people, considering MJ had none at the time of his death. I have been spending and talking to F more and more. He was the guy I met at the FB HT show last year and one of the best guys I ever got to date. We hang out, talk on the phone and it feels good. I was a loner and I loved being alone but now as I get older, it's just dreadful. Even just being alone in the house when my sisters aren't around makes me a little sad. I don't need people, I am far from clingy but it's just nice having someone around. He is not always around since he lives a bit far, but that's ok. I was never the type to want to see my bf every single day. (That is madness! My sister is like that. How does one do it?) It's just nice to have someone who doesn't judge my diagnosis, he is one of the only that I can talk to about it that isn't my Doctor. So yay? But we aren't dating, he knows I am interested in someone else. But says he is willing to wait. Normally I would run screaming but that is loyalty that I need at the moment?

Some pics of the casino trip. All off my phone. We just swam and hung out in the sun. I did gamble once, won 60.00 and got out and read the rest of the night. Yay. I'm so boring, but no one seemed to mind. The room and it's beds were nice and plushy. The TV selection sucked, but I never put in any real value in television. ( Read more... )

ETA: Jason keeps it real. RESPECT! POWER OF MJ!

OMG. George. Ahahahaha. Love it! My eye was sore on Sunday, limping on monday and blew up today. DAMN. I was mortified and ran to the doctor who was just as shocked. Got meds. We fought about the Cipro. (Took Cipro 3 years ago, it has changed my life and I hate it. That and wellbutrin, both fucked me up and I vow never to take it again.) So I have on hand polymyxin, drops for my eyes and prednisone for the swelling. He gave me three days of sick leave, so I pretty much start of vacation on Friday, so I'm off till late next week. I hope I get better. I HOPE.

In OTHER news, my order from ikickshins came in. LOOK AT IT. If you ever wanted hair pieces, loose falls or even cute light up hair accessories like this. (I bought two, they are BRIGHT as hell.) Go to ikickshins.net for very reasonable handmade hair pieces and fast, FAST turn-about-time.

If my eye looks decent on Friday, we ARE going to Disneyland for the weekend.

#1. Isn't Gwen beautiful? It's almost impossible taking a pic of yourself, should be a better one when mezdeathhead puts one up. I had a blast. I handled it well, the last 30 minutes killed me, I was angsty and my stupid pelvic bone was killing me; but otherwise, I just sat and rested, it was my time to rest since I worked 7 days/12hr shifts beforehand. I hope she didn't mind. Yes, I found getting the tattoo relaxing. Warlock is beautiful. I plan on doing a full yelp review soon when I get a chance.



#2. Paparazzi video is OUT. Jesus. The Neck brace, her lack of mobility, the transfer from the limo to the wheelchair, the way she stood with the walker when she got off the wheelchair. The health professional in me, SQUEED. Gaga never seems to fail and always goes above and beyond! The start of it is tedious and cringe worthy with the ugly guy, just skip pass 2.50 and you are good! Paparazzi has been dead to me since I have been listening to it since late last July, but damn, I feel like I love it all over again! I can't believe up until now it's being released as a single. The video is SO good. I don't think they'll play it on tv. Maybe they'll have a re-edit. There is no way with everyone dying left and right towards the end.

#3. Had a dog scare over the pass few days. Went to the vet. They took care of what needed to be taken care of. He is doing well. Oh my gosh, I love him to BITS.

#4. Working another seven days, but I get six days off. OMG. What will I do? I'm thinking if no Disneyland (still haven't had a straight answer!), more bleaching, maybe a room cleaning? Resting? Reading? Zoo time? Hm..

Hello all. I haven't posted in a while. What have I been doing in my time since last posted? Listening to 21st Century Breakdown, of course. It isn't perfect, but I love it and I need about two to three tracks to grow on me. East Jesus Nowhere is the hottest jam on the disc. 21 Guns is ridic. Radio-single-people are going to love that one. I could go on, I don't want to do a review of sorts, I say, go buy the album! Sadly for some reason I can't over the fact that Know Your Enemy was the first single. What? Easily the weakest song of the album. Why do they do this? I should except this because they released Jesus of Suburbia as the last single for AI and JOS is perfection. Green Day or not, JOS was the best rock song I've heard in the last five years.

Why, yes. This is my life. I wouldn't have it any other way. A good record can keep me entertained for years. I still listen to AI (GD) daily, TBP (MCR) weekly and a copy of SU (SMAP) is always in my car. Anyone else have an album they can listen to endlessly like they've just heard it for the first time.

New photo! Started lifting weights again and couldn't even button this shirt a month ago, but after a month of weight lifting, it can be worn. I could care less about the lbs#, I just care about how I feel and I feel good. Pain is decent, it's manageable. I just want to feel the way I feel right now in August. I hope I don't fuck up and do something stupid at work and have to go back to the hospital. I haven't been to the Doctor in a good two weeks and I'm happy! It's almost like I'm normal. Sure I have the little moments where it acts up but.. I'm just happy it's manageable. Thankyouthankyou.

Epic secret is epic. I didn't make it, but I love it. So true. So true. My little sister is barely aware of Rogers and Hammerstein. (She's 15). I told her we need to start watching. Every year there is a theater in downtown San Jose that plays a few of their musicals on the big screen, that is when she will see it. She needs to get the full effect of their music. Carousel on the big screen! O_O. DEAD.

Why couldn't this female be the lead in Watchmen? FIERCE!

Fanfic Talk/Rec. I'm not much of a slash person. I was back in HS when it was all seemed new and all seemed the rage; so when all the slash you've read is either boyband or gundam; it's bound to burn you out. And it has, for years. But after re-reading the graphic novel and seeing all the fanwork that's coming out, I will admit I have been very interested in the Comedian/Ozymandias. The Comedian just oozes sexuality and I feel the only thing coming from Ozymandias is asexuality. So um, crack pairing IT IS. So I looked around and found nothing but Rorschach-slash (Oh.MY.GOD.NO.) Rorschach-OOC (Why? And it gets the MOST comments!) and Rorschach-crossover (WAT.)Clearly the fandom is keen on Rorschach. But some kind soul pointed me to anshin_fanfic where the writer is keen on C/O. YEESSSS. This had me wishing I had a bff who understood these things where in the old days I would call my bff and we would read out loud each others favorites parts. Those days, long gone; so I can only share it all with you. JKFSLKSDFN! It's THAT good.

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Eddie had to suppress a snort—god, he was such a prick. Every little move Adrian made just pegged him as an asshole, and Eddie couldn’t put his finger on why. Rich fucking bastard, thought he owned the world...christ, couldn’t even hang up what he was doing for ten goddamn minutes, and he was the one who’d called Eddie.
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GO READ IT. It's been ages where a fanfic had me grinning for hours where I get stopped and asked why I'm so happy.

Makeup: I own at least 28 different Urban Decay colors and usually use one for a week and never touch it again. Some of my biggest mistake buys are the ugly as hell Vert and Smog. But Midnight Cowboy is what I swear by, it goes with everything and stays on my eyelids with or without their primer. I need to get my fringe cut because it now droops waaaaaaay past my eyebrows.

Accessories: I bought four more over the weekend. I found this beauty at forever 21 and was floored. Since when did they have cute stuff? I went on their website to investigate further and saw this one. I need to own that! I would order it online but I'm trying very hard to cutback on online purchases. I notice last month, I spent 280.00 on accessories alone. Not good. What the hell did I get!?!?

Health: Went to the Doctor. Two things happen within the start of the year. I'm severely allergic to ibuprofen. I knew this for years and it never became an issue because I avoided it all at cost and was able to handle my pain well through pain management. But the pain was so severe in Feb that I took Advil and Motrin daily and had this rash take up residence on my right arm. The rash was (and still is!) ridiculous looking. At first it was flammin' red but has now healed and left a dreadful scar(s) that everyone thinks I either got shot/beat. The Doctor swears it'd heal, but he and I knows my skin will never go back to the way it was. We talk about this, he thinks it depresses me. It depresses me that he thinks I'm the type of woman who would let this bring me down. He tells me to cover it. Why does everyone tell me to cover it? We talk about depression and pain. I tell him I have never been sad, the pain hasn't affected my job or my relationships with my family and residents. Ah. Relationships. I had to bring in the word, he says I should put myself out there, cover the scar and find someone. Who the hell does this guy think he is? I tell him I have no need for that, especially more than ever. I want to focus 10000000000000% on me. We talk, it's easily two hours. I love this guy because he doesn't rush me, but then again he does half the talking so I sit and strain and think how I could be home watching People's Court. Next month, I'll make an effort so we can laugh about it later. But in reality all I'm thinking about is what kind of tattoo can I get to cover up the scar(s).

Music: I have barely touched my old ipod and need to update my new ipod. It's so much work. I made a playlist with every song that makes me feel alive and I noticed a trend. I won't say the trend because it's stupid, but I can assure you I have not a single ballad on that list. I HATE BALLADS. Fuck no. But all three G's are on that playlist. Oh my boys. Speaking of G's and tattoos. I have been in love with the idea to get the G and the XXX of being straight-edge in a single tattoo. I know GWay's signature has the lovely XoXo and his signature is so discreet with the lower-case g, looking at my other two boys they both signed their names with lowercase g's at all times. Aw, such is fate. Oh, you'll see if I ever get it done.

Geez. Long post is long. Leave me long enough to wait for a phone call and look what happens. Call..Call..Call me. Just give me a call and if I don't pick up, I'll get back to you, I promise.

So who is on twitter? I use it often since I never have time to really post on LJ anymore. You all should leave your or message me your twitter names and I can add you. ^_^ Health-wise, I feel decent. I avoid pain meds like nothing else, so I finally started taking some and it gives the false sense of stability. I was put on modified duty which has our scheduling lady annoyed since in our workplace modified duty is for the pregnant and workman's comp. people. She'll get over it. My residents fuss over me and it's dreadful and makes me feel guilty. They all swear up and down and I can share a room with them and get the window bed. I love my residents but just thinking about the doom and gloom of being put in a home is horrible. It's no where near that bad, but then the residents see you limp around it gets all these crazy ideas in their head; this is again, why I'm taking the pain meds. Dignity issues, yo. I see a specialist later in the month. After this, I may not bring it up again in lj. Again, dignity issues. I realize again, when you have something wrong with you, people do three things: alienated you, baby you and do the whole "but you're so YOUNG" spill. Very annoying.

So I spend my days working (almost every day, wow.) Playing the Wii or at least attempting to; Everyone is annoyed at my lack of coordination with the wii remote and watching Sailor Moon. My sister and I will attempt to watch it, since I'm not big on sitting on one place for a long period of time and I loathe the TV, we can get to four episodes before I have to call it quits and run off to do something else. After that, I've been dying to get her into Urusei Yatsura, it's my dream to watch the whole run all over again. I've only seen the series in full, once. There isn't THAT many episodes but the whole split-episode format they have makes the series seem SO much longer. But I love that series, I can quote an unhealthy amount of it. I never cared for the OAVs, I found them horribly animated and it just didn't seem the same. The slapstick wasn't there.

We did make it somehow to see the Jonas movie in SF, and the theater was suppppppppper nice with leather seats. I had no idea there was a theater in the Westfield when the super nice Imax is easily across the street. There was no time to actually shop which sucked, because I hate to rush and I was dying to pop into H&M. The theater was packed with mom and girls who screamed and screamed and screamed for such weird stuff. There was MUCH Kevin in the film and there was so many moments I can already pin point all the gif's that are going to be made into it! The setlist was meh, no Lovebug in the film but Pushing me Away was so much better than I recalled live. Wowowow. Demi was meh, but I liked Taylor's bits. I really want the live audio, I'm surprised it hasn't leaked yet.

Otherwise, that's it. Here's some stuff I uploaded the other day, there is alot of people requesting video game music on the music communities, with Galbadia Hotel gone where does one get their fix? I've been slowly rar-ing my music and uploading bits and pieces if there is a request.

Dance Dance Revolution: Mario Mix OST
Size: 40 MB
DL Link:http://www.sendspace.com/file/6pr9zm

Super Smash Bros. Melee Disc 1
Size: 80 MB
DL Link: http://www.sendspace.com/file/gk0gp5



Been talking about this for the last few days, I didn't think she'd do a video that could top the pokerface video, but she did.

Sorry I haven't been around, been around answering comments but no posting. Nothing really to post about, just been to the doctor a handful of times, been at work, leave work early because of pain. And well, we finally have pinpointed the source of my pain. I have a hernia! Which explains everything, ohohoho. It's nice to have a name to my issues. Later on this month, I see a specialist who will give the 100% I do have a hernia. We'll know for sure when surgery will take place. People at my work are praying I have a cyst. I guess that's the better end of the deal? All I know is that I have been bored out of my mind! I missed out on a concert that I believe no one went to because there is still no info on merch/setlist/fanpics or ANYTHING. That, and I've been home watching day time tv which kills me. But it's better than thinking about the pain. But I just hope I get my life back to together by this summer. There is SO much plans that are going down..