Tonight is my sisters birthday and we are going somewhere in a bit, so for some reason OF COURSE I felt the need to finally do an LJ post. Because, lack of time sure seems like a good time to cram as much as I can. My sister made the above photo. I love happy-positive-pics of my team but that batting average is killing me. Worried more than ever for the upcoming SF series. Pray, because I feel like I am going to get laughed out of AT&T Park. ;_____;
San Diego? Meh. It's nice but not for me. Went to numerous beaches, lots of walking, not enough eating, didn't really buy much, mostly played with the kids. But Petco Park was something else. GREAT place and atmosphere, I can NOT stress enough how kind and gracious they were. Of course we were all in incognito with no dodger gear on. The place was gorgeous, the food out of this world, the merch was so good. I wish I had all the money in the world to buy it all and just bathe in it. So pretty. Navy blue is soooooooooo nice. Briar and I really bonded on this trip, we played SO much and she now very curious about me and looks for me. Usually we play and she's kinda done with me and leaves but she'll ask where I am while at work or what I am doing if I am not at home. She had her hair in a braid and when undoing it, her hair was crimped and wavy and she said she looked just like me. What a sweet girl. I love her endlessly.
In LA, our field level seats were SO good. I wanted to just cry but the kids were so restless and tired we had to leave in the 8th. Plus the crowd was filled with first timers (don't wanna be mean but it was LGBT night) and lots of people there just for the scene, lots of cameras, standing and walking around. No one was really watching the game so eh, plus endless blasting of dance music just makes me wanna cry. I like to hear the crack of the bat. But it was funny to hear commentary about how hot our players are, how tight their pants are and just how UNhot their batting average is. (I know, I know...)
It was a very long vacation and I don't feel comfortable taking 9 days off. I was anxious and wanting to get back to my routine. I am very happy to spend lots of time with my family but it can be overwhelming and again, I missed my routine and talking to my friends and being in the gamechat and just going to work and having the same breakfast I always have at 8:20am and just MY LIFE. But it was a nice distraction from other issues in my life. Nothing bad or major, I just needed to cut someone out of my life and the anxiety/guilt/restlessness is gone. I focus so much energy on a not so good person.
I am happy to be reading more books, drinking more teas, working more hours and listening to an absurd amount of Zayn. YES HIS ALBUM IS THAT GOOD.
LIKE OMG. BALLADS. ME? YES. SLAY EM' ZAYN. I wasn't a believer but now, album is top notch.